...someone who is not me!
James has started to babble a lot before he goes to sleep at night. I'm always worried that he will keep Rod awake so we have started putting him in his crib more at night. It used to be that he couldn't sleep in his nursery at all but now he seems to be able to sleep better there than in the pack 'n play next to my bed.
I put him to bed at 10:30 last night and brought the monitor into bed with me (like I usually do). At 3:15 I woke up to Rod messing with the monitor. I asked him if James was awake. He said, "he WAS but now he is asleep again". Apparently Rod got up to use the bathroom at 2:30 and heard James screaming. The poor little guy was all worked up and I never heard him. He normally sleeps exactly 3 hours at a time during the night so he had probably woken up about 1:30. In my sleep I had turned the monitor upside-down so the speaker was facing the mattress. It muffled the sound so I didn't hear a thing. I feel so horrible that I let my little baby cry his eyes out in the dark when all he wanted was a bottle.
Rod was so sweet to take care of him even though he had to get up early this morning. It would have been a nice break for me to get to sleep through that feeding but after I figured out what I had done, I spent the next hour thinking of "what ifs" and couldn't go back to sleep.
Oh well, James is no worse for the wear today and I know that I will make many more (and probably more long-lasting) mistakes with him but I still feel bad. Now that I've confessed my mistake to the world (or at least the 3 people who read my blog), maybe I can quit kicking myself!
Help me feel better and leave me a comment with your "not so proud" parenting moments.